I run around, things falling on my head…and money is the key to everything. 

If I find money, which way ever, I am a good nice lovely person. If I dont, I am a bad, criminal bastard who is no good and should be banned. I do not eat, live, enjoy, am not an acceptable person in any way. Not invited to anyone, not getting presents, should actually go and hide as long as I cannot solve my money problems.

So yes, it feels my head explodes. First time in my life I have high blood pressure. I dont want to eat medicine, trying to calm down instead but difficult.